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[30 Sep 2003|04:05pm] |
where oh where have I been? hmmm.. to cut everything short. I did my dutch course, I passed 3 of the 4 .. Still gotta do speaking. and I have begun school again and Linving in Leusden with Bas, (at his parents). I dont know if I'll be using livejournal again. Prolly not. but who knows, maybe now and again..
we'll see!!!
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[27 Feb 2002|02:55pm] |
I just got back, they gave me forms to fill in. I have an appointment to sign myself up for them to help me to find work on monday, then they'll give me more forms and a new appointment for signing up for social security.
they gave me information on a school that teaches dutch..no payment needed. Wernher also gave me a name of a place.
anyways. I'm gonna phone undutchables and manpower now and see if they have anything for me, then look through the newspaper..
*prays for an english opening that requires NO diploma*
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[27 Feb 2002|11:02am] |
I have to go to social services today. I have no idea whats going on with me. I feel like I cant do anything alone. I dont wanna go places alone, I have to tho.
My sweetie offered to help me out till I find a job, cos I am broke. and I dont know when I'll find a job. I'm just so frightened of looking. I dont know how to do anything. for the past 3 years I been working in a little office as a graphics designer .. the only one. Hardly ever being in contact with people. Now, when I say to myself I WANT to get out there and ming with the people. I find myself afraid, cos why? cos of language.
I havent gotten any replies from places I mailed for graphic design, not that I want to get into that again.
I'm like in fucking limbo right now, only thing is.. I dont get to make the choice of where to work, they do. I just have to apply to everything. And I hate doing this. I hate it totally, cos I feel like I'm lost. I'm talking to people who look at me funny, and prolly laugh at me when I walk out.. even when I speak english.
well. this was my decision to come here. I just have to accept for now and keep looking forward to the day I have a job, learning dutch. I need to feel like I'm doing something. At the moment I feel like my search is never gonna end.
And my poor Bas has to deal with me everytime I get depressed about this. I must do something about it and stop crying.
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[25 Feb 2002|01:02pm] |
this weekend was hectic. Wern cleaned the lounge and shifted things around. It looks rad now. I put some curtians up, and then yesterday I got a bed and closetso now I feel more homely.We got a tv too woohooo.... hehehe It was chaos in this house yesterday. too many people here. Bas met my gran,uncle dick, my aunt,my grandad,and daisy. My poor baby, but he did well. :) Bas sat with me while I did my room, I realy liked him just sitting with me while doing my shit. I've never had that before.Always done it alone.
Well, I must be off, gotta go to stadhuis again and then later I must go to zuidplein to organise uitkering...Not that it will help when I mostly need it, but my boyfriend is the greatest, he offered to help me out if I have problems. I am really the luckiest girl alive.
We took some photos on saterday night..
Only two of them. We took about 7 I think.. but I like these two :)
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[22 Feb 2002|10:04pm] |
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Just realised its been 20 days already since I arrived. Damn but time flies when you are where you wanna be... I just need a darn job tho hehehhee
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[22 Feb 2002|09:56pm] |
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Like my new colors and my new icon? I do.. hehehe...
I like this cam :D love playing around with it.. anyways I'm off to take a piccie for my love so that when he gets home and reads his mail its there.. :))
I think I like this look alot actually... real fresh.
My sweetie is coming to visit tommorrow and sunday. He has to meet the granparents oooohhh.. sorry baby, I really hope you wont be too nervous, they normal people really.. jsut real WEIRD normal people.
I really wish I had a scanner. Ive started drawing again. I got myself a nice a5 booklet of just blank pages, has a spiral binding, its what I've wanted for a long time.. has alot of pages in, so I'm gonna be drawing like crazy. :))
BLEH.. I'm off to make a few pics for my love. :p
I think I must stop downloading songs from audiogalaxy. Werns gonna kill me hehehehe.
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[22 Feb 2002|11:09am] |
well .. I was meant to go sign in residence today, but stupid me lost the form and the paper where it said the details of the appointment .. so.. I gotta go back thereand get new forms and wait ANOTHER 2 weeks..
I'm gonna clean house today..this place looks like a bomb hit it. I'm first gonna go make me a sammie tho.
I should prolly go to stadhuis first and find out if they can still fit me in :/
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[20 Feb 2002|11:58pm] |
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Today was horrible. I went out to find a job, I was going for cleaning or unpacking, and I just got 'no's the whole time. the woman at the one uitzenburo was really nasty.. she prolly didt think it would hurt but she told me I need to be able to speak dutch, and when I speak its just not good enough. she laughed. I cried the way back home.I got home and phoned my sweetie and cried some more. He tried to make me feel better. He did help in the end, cos I feel like I'm trying like I should.. Graphics is all I know.
I've been searching on the net through the yellow pages for holland, for graphics places in rotterdam. I've sent a letter out to some places. Bas's mom helped and so did Bas to fix my letter up. I must just do this right. I want to redesign my site my site in flash, but thats gonna take a while. I just wanna do a simple one.
My sweetie made me think of that hehee.. in a way. cos he designed a cd for me but I feel wrong sending that out cos the cd work is not mine. Thank you for the offer baby, but I wanna at least do that on my own, you can sit with me while I do flas and help me though. :))
well, tommorrow I'll get started on a resign.A very need,professional and simple one. I just wish I had done more logos and normal graphics business like while working at internext. I tried looking for my logo designs I made for internext. I must have forgotten to ftp them.. oh well.. I'm gonna get back in design.. maybe I'll be happy.. grrr.. hehehe
I dunno anymore.
well toodles darlings. Love you all...
peace love and inspiration.
yummy yummy I love my bright white light. :p
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[19 Feb 2002|11:56am] |
This weekend was great. Bas-Peter came over on saterday, he slept over. We hardly went out. Sat indoors and just fooled about. We drew, kissed, joked, we very silly together.hehehe He dances nicely with me. I love dancing with him. I went through wernher and my cd's and all the music on the pc to let him hear hehe...I jsut wanna show him everything. We made snacks for supper, both nights.
I really love spending time with my sweetie. He drives me crazy.. good crazy though :D I forget all my worries when I'm with him.
I have to go out and look for a cleaning job, cos I am running low on cash. only have about 100 euro left... shitty....
sorry jonty and non-existing that I dont reply to your entries as much anymore. Hope you understand, but I still do read them on occassion. when I do write.
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[15 Feb 2002|07:26pm] |
oooh. what a shame hehe I haven't written anything about meeting Bas.
well, leme put it to you like this. I have truelly found the one for me. I really love Bas-Peter. He's everything I ever wanted. and he's better in real life hehe.. how that could be possible I dunno, cos he was perfect before anyways hhehe..
yesterday being valentines day was the best day of my life, just being able to spend the whole day with him was really great. We went to amsterdam, walked around, went to rijksmusuem, and then we went to Leusden to visit his sister.
His sister is really great. she is stranger than he explained hhehee, t really cool. I never felt so accepted by anyone.
Bas is coming over this weekend, i really am very excited.
As for a job, nothing hapening there just yet.
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[08 Feb 2002|01:24pm] |
I went to the BOO! concert last night at the water front in rotterdam with wern and adam. It was really cool. I danced my ass off ehehe..man it was nice to hear SA vibes, and see dem south africans infront of me. there was a supporting band kopna kopna, was cool, but the frontman irritated me hehe .. his stage performance sux. but yeh, I enjoyed the music. bass guitarist was good.
I did some shoopping this morning..phoned Bas, he should be coming online at 2. :) we meeting tommorrow. I really cant wait. I'm so excited. :)
I love my angel, he's so for me.
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[07 Feb 2002|12:08pm] |
being able to see Bas when we chat online is the best thing yet :)
I love cams heheheheh
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[06 Feb 2002|11:46am] |
oh by the way.. Bas and I now get to speak over the phone, and chat with webcam. Wernher has a cam.. unfortunately my baby' s cam doesn't give me nice images.. but we think its cos he doesnt have cable .. cos he sees me all clear, and I see him jumbled.. ehehehhee.. but anything is better than nothing. its does clear up now and again... which is cool. :))
I love my sweetie.. he makes me happy!!!!
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[06 Feb 2002|11:42am] |
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well. yeh.. things are cool this side. weather is very easy for me to adjust to.. after all I LIKE covering up most of my body hehehe...
now and again I shiver,but the same amount of time I can wear just a t-shirt, or walk around without shoes on and not have my little toes crack off.
so far I 've gotten my sofi number and opened a bank account.. gotta go to the job agencies today....uitzenbeurea's.. they give out crappy jobs tho but hey i'm new.. its expected hehehe..
I just need something fast hehe.. cos knowing me my money will run out very soon..
The metros,trains,trams... shit man, I've already lost how many I've catched and shit.. its pretty strange, cos you gotta pay, but half the people dont. cos they never check.. wernhers had a 45 stop ticket for months that has only been stamped a few times.. hehehhe..
you never really miss a metro.cos they come round every 10 minutes...
train, well only been on one.. from schipol to rotterdam central station.
living with my brother.. adam,wernher and jeff...they have turn tables, so the whole day I'm listening to them mixing hehehe.. okay maybe not the whole day but often enough.
I havent' really seen much cool stuff, got more than enough time to do that :) did however see lotsa matchbox houses hehehe.. which is expected :)
very multiracial place.. very cool.. no wonder its easy to adjust to :) you dont feel like you the only one. :D
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[05 Feb 2002|03:39pm] |
Well I got everything organised except signing in residence.
I got my sofi number and opened a bank account.
have an appointment for the 22nd to register.
Tommorrow I will go to the uitzenbeureas... to apply for jobs.. yay.
I get to chat on the phone with my baby now, and today we gonna start using cams :) it just gets better
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[04 Feb 2002|10:40am] |
okay so I'm here. flight sucked.
yesterday was cool. I feel at home.
I got to tak to Bas three times yesterday : its so cool to talk to him for however long and not worry bout how much its gonna cost.
I'm going to the stadhuis today to get my sofi number.
well, I dont feel up for livejournal anymore. hehehe.
ps. I am so content.
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[31 Jan 2002|01:47pm] |
well. this is goodbye for now. my last day at work. Last entry while in south africa. See you all in a week or two in HOLLAND :))
*kisses*
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[31 Jan 2002|09:46am] |
AND 8 DAYS till me and my baby meet :)))))
well, I went to dinner with my family last night. I never felt so loved by them before. I think this year was meant to be the year I reunite with my family. I got all their email addresses and I promise to mail them as often as I can.
I woke up this morning at 5, packed, cleaned up ,showered and balled my eyes out. my stomach is turning I'm so emotional right now. I got all these feelings and they all messed up. Got joy cos I'm gonna be starting a new life, got sadness, cos I'm leaving this behind and cos of my dad. and so much more. Right now.. if anything. I feel frightened, but its weird cos its an excited frightened.. This is now for myself, but then I got these feelings for my dad, realisation.. thoughts ..hurt..confusion.. regret. Its so hard to understad what I'm feeling right at this point..
Too much love.
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[30 Jan 2002|09:59am] |
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You are interested in 2 things in this world: Love and sex. You are a complete romantic (and probably a big whore.) You just want to be loved.
You really value your friends and your family, but more than anything, you value your boyfriend/girlfriend/husband/person you are stalking.
You don't necessarily value yourself very much, but it's ok because you will find someone else to value you. Sad, but you're oblivious, so it doesn't matter.
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